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Wednesday, October 08, 2008
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Wednesday, August 20, 2008
De ansiedades y demás yerbas
Acabo de visitar nuevamente el blog de una hermana del corazón, y me encontré leyendo una descripción medio fumada pero SUPER artística de la ansiedad que padecemos aquellos que la incorporamos como un "desorden".
Y hablando de ansiedades...ayer tuve visita al ginecólogo que atiende mi embarazo y a pesar de que le pedí que no me dé la fecha de parto aún, el MUY insensato de mi esposo se la preguntó en mi presencia...rayos!!! Yo que estaba cuidando mi umbral de desesperación!...falta un mes y 20 días que se pueden convertir en menos si mi organismo lo decide así. Para colmo de males...mi shrink se toma vacaciones durante toooodo Septiembre.
Entonces yo me pregunto: Y ahora qué hago????
Vuelve a atacarme la sensación de que nadie me entiende, solo mi sister que está a muchos kilómetros de distancia y mucho no puede hacer. Mi esposo me mira como si estuviera loca, mi madre me repite incansables veces que no me haga problema y mi cuñada semi-nueva me quiere llevar a una endocrinóloga!
No quiero tomar medicamentos! Ni del psiquiatra ni de una "yuyera". Lo que más quiero en este momento es que dejen de presionarme en la escuela con la insensata pregunta de "¿Cuándo tomás la licencia?" Si tienen tanto interés por saber ¿Cómo es que no se pudieron grabar el 19 de Septiembre de las millones de veces que contesté lo mismo?
Por desgracia, en términos generales, la gente no entiende a los que tienen "trastornos de ansiedad", nos ven como a locos, desequilibrados y hasta peligrosos. No entienden que el único inconveniente radica en la imposibilidad de manejar esa ansiedad, en la necesitad de no esperar, de que TODO (lo importante y lo no tanto) se resuelva YA.
Entiendan de una vez por todas que no estoy loca, solo un poquito apurada. Tengo paciencia de sobra para enseñarles a mis alumnos y tratarlos mejor que el resto (yo los trato como "adolescentes/personas" los otros profesores en general, sólo como "alumnos"), pero no llego ni al 1% de paciencia a la hora de esperar.
Resumiendo y para dejarlo más claro, me puedo colgar del dicho "El que espera, desespera"...
Si para cualquiera esto es común, para mi lo es aún más.
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Saturday, July 05, 2008
My days as teacher, tutor and patient gardener at Escuela Normal
Yes, I finally got a job!!! My coming baby was not a problem to get it. I'm happy, I'm proud of myself, I want to scream, cry and laugh. I'm HAPPY!!!!
I have six groups, all different, but all adolescents. My favourite kind of students.
I've been working for a month and every day has been a blessing. Sometimes I have to tell them off because they don't want to do ANYTHING but in general terms they work with me without effort.
My pregnant belly is the star of the show. By touching it, they show me their feelings, by letting them touch it, I show them mine. I always try to keep my smile, in fact it's quite easy because I'm all the time enjoying my moment in front of the class, and my students seem to enjoy the same because our classes are a real learning experience. I don't have to yell at them, because when I stand in front without saying a word, they show me their respect by staying completely silent.
I've been teaching them only for a month, but I have already fallen in love with all my students, I still cannot make a distinction between the good ones and the bad ones, but honestly, I hope I never do it. I have to recognize that those who are bad in English are the cause of my worriment but only because I want all of them to learn.
I hate when I have to draw a cross by their names because they haven't done their homework or they haven't brought their material to work in my class, but I know that I have to do it...and I do it.
Yesterday I had my first unfriendly encounter with a mother that was resistant to accept the idea that her daughter is not doing anything more than talking with one of her classmates in my class. The woman was really upset and quite altered, I had to ask her to calm down because her daughter's situation wasn't my fault. Anyway, at some point I was afraid because I thought the mother would hit her daughter in front of me. She was really altered. Maybe if I hadn't had my pregancy she could have tried hitting me...
Anyway, I'm still extremely happy for this job, and I hope it lasts longer than it is supposed to.
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Tuesday, March 25, 2008
Current situation: UNEMPLOYED
My days are flowing in an awkward way. I'm pregnant, which makes me really happy, but I'm also unempleyed due to my pregnancy.
On one hand, I understand that it's a problem for some institutions to employ me, but on the other hand, I also feel that I'm being discriminated. Nowadays my options are to wait for a teacher to retire, and a friend giving me some of those hours, or wait for open calls to cover a position at the province. In other words, I'm in a stative situation which I'm not acustomed to.
I'M BORED STIFF!!!!!
I don't know waht to do. I'm reading, but reading is not comparable to the rushing times I had last year. I want to do something! I want to be outside. Being at home all the time makes me feel sick.
Anyway, I hope this situation changes in some way at some point, either because I find something to do or because being at home stops being a burden.
See you soon!
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Tuesday, February 12, 2008
Long time no see!!!


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