Every person in the world has good and bad moments. Sometimes without even wanting to have one or the other, people feel either happy or sad.
Today is one of my sunny days, and I don't really know why. Could it be because is actually a sunny day or... just because. I won't spend much thought on it. The point is that I would like to extend this sunny day to other people, but how do you become a cheerful contagious person?
I would start by saying that today is one of those days in which I really want to thank EVERYONE who has been in my life for better or worse, for a minute or for a while. THANK YOU EVERYONE!!!!
Thanks to my family to support my dreams and help me achieve them, thanks to my friends to make me open my eyes when I close them tightly, thanks to the people who are not in my everyday life, but for a moment from time to time, thanks to the teachers who are not formally teaching me anymore, but have become a helpful source of wisdom every time I need it, thanks to the teachers I do have (and suffer sometimes) now, because they are strengthening my character and preparing me to go to the work life (and well-prepared), thanks to my boss for being such a kind person, and to my immediate superior for not being such... at all.
I'm thankful; I feel I can scream my happiness. Maybe I have too much sugar in my blood. Maybe I'm on a state of denial. Maybe, maybe, maybe...
I said I don't want to spend too much thought on it, but I cannot cope with my necessity of rational meaning in everything I have, live, achieve or receive. A good question might be: WHY?
Is it because of four years of therapy? Is it my shrink's fault? Or is it that I couldn't overcome (yet) this tendency of putting sticks on my own path?
Am I crazy? Am I delusional? Why am I doing this to myself? Why is it that I cannot enjoy my moments? GOD what am I doing?
No, no, no, I have to feel better again. I have to feel better again. I cannot fall. I cannot show a sad face anymore. I cannot, no; I cannot show a sad face again.
Family, I need you. Where are you? Friends? People not always present? Ex-Teachers? Teachers? Boss? Immediate superior?...
I'm alone...
But I'm not lonely.
I have myself.
What else do I need?
Anyway...THANK YOU EVERYONE!!!! And enjoy your day as much as I am enjoying mine!
Monday, April 30, 2007
Sunny days
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2 comments:
Good stream of consciousness... Allowing oneself to feel, regardless of the weight, length or depth of the feelings is not so easy. The rational animal in us does not seem to take a break ever. But we need to try... lay it down to rest for a while... wouldn't it be nice to be successful every now and then?
I´m glad to read what you wrote in this entry because it makes me feel calm about you.sometimes you don´t look very well,I think that you are too demanding with yourself.you should relax a little bit and enjoy all the things you have.thanks my friend for your comments and your support,I appreciate that.thank you very much.kisses and hughs.mauri
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